RECOVERY IS SO HARD. But do we really talk about it enough? Recovering from anything is difficult. Healing trauma is difficult. Healing from an eating disorder is REALLY hard when you live in society that HAS an eating disorder.
Ok ok , what do I mean? Our society is obsessed with body, weight, fitness, dieting and wellness. Basically everything that is the antithesis of healing from an eating disorder. As someone who is in long term recovery, it can still be hard for me. We live in a world that is obsessed with being the thinnest, prettiest and most "healthy." And when you're in the middle of healing, damn, it is difficult to feel like an outsider.
Early on in my recovery, I was meeting with my nutritionist (WHO I LOVE) and said "how are we supposed to do this?" How are we supposed to live totally opposite of the rest of the world? And she said a few things. Firstly she said, "Catie, maybe its your job to heal others and create safety for people who feel this way" and also 'it's worth it'- which I can attest to, it is.
For those of you who are struggling, I get it. I see you. I hear you. Keep on. It gets better.